sec 4 ptm and training

i was chionging my hw all the way on thursday man...i saw i was the only 1 chioning hw??! other classses so gud meh? teacher nvr gave them hw? xcept for IC Garry Mag... lol he food IC for tt day leh!!! damn gud man he order so much food and drink, even though there were so many ppl not coming bcoz of choir!!! even more than previous ptms sia...and during those time got even much more ppl. i now then realised tt CMC is mostly made up of choir de...other lvls not sure,but our lvl is definitely.. then after evry thing ivan gave briefing then xcos came interupting with the birthday cake lol.. btw happy birthday Ivan! a day late liao..lol HA! 4 yrs old..hehe

then during yesterday's training the sec 3s were having their interviews for their posts to be decided, ha staff said quite a no. of ppl went out to talk to those ICs who were waiting 4 their turn... i stayed in the proj work room for the whole time man doing the model coz some ppl slacking... didnt even make a single step out until almost the end,pei richii go toilet wash hands...

another blow....

another blow again...blow after blow...

science has come to knock on the door of troubles for me too...felt tt i too lonely?

tmr got sec 4 ptm...involved in it again...waste time man...so much hw nowadays still got tis kind of shit...and lacking of manpower 4 tmr too...so many got choir and 3rd lang...

my every single subj's marks deproving.. izzit me deproving or the papers juz getting difficult?

bleh...

wow i now then realised the last post so long seh!!! i typed it in 10 mins so i thought i was quite short...

anyway today got the overall marks for maths...bad news juz seemed to flow out for me recently...even if there was good news,it was not enuf to cheer me up from the few or many disappointments...

Cross country,training and emotions....

got training on last friday...muscles all already aching and tight from thursday's Cross Country...but then the next day still got training...abit weird neh....all the marshals all got duty yet they still give training on next day...no nid to wash the uniform liao??? majority will smell damn "nice".... not that i hate training,but sometimes why set until the training schedule so weird? then IC wei kit say is Sir Goh set de.... btw from wad i heard when i finish the 3.5 km,my timing was between 13-15 mins....so slow...then zi wei and da ren niao still come pester me,keep say i shuld have gone to the competitive ones...to make it to the top 10,i have to get 12 mins leh!!! be realistic can anot? then ur again say i slacked ...haiz sometimes ppl really ask too much,and thought dat we didnt try... i ran alongside the NCC LAND Best Pt leh...Yuan Ye...obviously he is better than me lah..duh...neck to neck then finally he sprinted in the end and outran me...i slower than him by 2 secs nia...

then wake up next day,find myself aching all over...haiz...afternoon got training...do PDS all the way...dunno how to describe my thoughts and feelings towards PDS leh...not say i dislike it,neither do i love it fantastically, its just dat i find it interesting but difficult to execute the moves...especially the most recently learnt one...frustrating tt i cant execute them smoothly..juz feel guai guai de... but i bet u anything dat Toh Hong will bcome the PDS AI for our lvl, he execute until damn zai...flick until so nice,pattern zui zui..lol...

then after training staff say he find my physical training dropped? k lah mayb indeed it drop...most probably now focus alot on studying..with my grades dropping which i cant really xplain,how to find time to train? not dat i trained much last year,but at least in school slack abit and practice trying to do 1 pull up or race with others in 1 lap see who faster...now no motivation to do so ler..coz studies all going so fast-paced... would u rather risk ur grades for better fitness? i dun dare man! i wun try to emalute the heck-care students who only care whether they look good in front of girls or do they get enuf hours to game in front of their com by reaching home early... i will try not to find out the atmosphere of a classroom holding a re-mastery review...nowadays...even during warm-up for PE,i am continuously thinking and pondering over studies..

staff also said i gave the sianz look nowadays... for tis one, i am not so sure...coz alot of my friends say i very cool or act cool, like daniel and zheng qian...but i not acting sia...tis is my natural look, nobody can change it unless something or someone very big influence me until i get very cheerful or damn funny or heck-care..so for tis one i dunno...coz i last year oso give alot of tis kind of looks... no matter i am studying,doing PE,Drills,PT,ordering my class or talking to my friends... but i am not a wooden block,i still laugh at jokes and crack some myself

wonder next tis coming friday got training anot...coz thursday got Sec 4 PTM,involving the NCOS themselves...then i will reach home damn late on tt day oso...

hopes: 1 get good marks and grades for my studies,daily exercise,projects and examinations
2 get back my fitness, my 2.4 deprove leh... 11.20 mins.. so slow...muz improve to
10.30 mins then slowly aim for 9 +... sports class got 8 mins de leh!!!

sob..sob..

my hcl....

my maths...

shattered...

downed....

tio owned...

omg...

haiz... all the common tests get back result damn lan man....all almost fail lor....zzzz. juz pass by either 1 mark of 2.... blehhhh...

then homework also very cham...ppl who play com or any other stuff at home can complete their hw damn fast! me leh? haiz...i always manage to complete hw juz on the deadline now lor....if not only 1 day b4....and i nvr play com liao lor!!! ever since abt 3 weeks ago!!! then still cant complete...jin hong say they all can complete even though they play long hrs of maple coz they have the mentality to chiong fin hw fast fast then play....i dun dare to try tt man...coz i tried it once or twice and the in the end it was much worse....zzz...

is my life all abt hw? morning during train journey sometimes do hw...then go school still got time also do hw...in between breaks also do hw... go home also do like siao...then no time revise...instead those who play and do and nvr revise all get damn high marks for common test...bohooo

I tried so hard and got so far.
But in the end, it doesnt even matter...

finally got some free time...

even though the common test was over on last week, still very busy... got shooting training which i am sucky in...den still nid to decorate class and do all sorts of CNY thingy... AND MDM ENDANG KEEP GIVING LOADS OF HOMEWORK! she never let us rest even for a single lesson man...so hiong...didnt even let us relax for abit...everyday would still continue giving homework...then after school still nid stay back quite long nowadays...haiz...sometimes the next day then do the homework man...even though MR is over.... then some of my friends advise me to copy their style and dun do....zzz..no wonder they can so slack...even juz b4 MR also like tt...